post partum

so, a month ago i gave my relationship another chance;  i think everyone deserves a second chance.  we had lunches and dinners, conversations, laughter, love, and plans about the future.  being stranded in the flood for a week had us thinking about moving to higher ground and moving in.  we started looking at model units, computing costs.  it became clear to me that i had to clarify where this was all going.

it was a short discussion but it marked what i felt was an irrevocable conclusion, and i think we both knew it.  

there was less drama this time.  everything had already been said and i had to be honest with myself that i am no longer in love and my affections had not only been misleading, they were hurtful as well.  i hope someday we could still be friends, that we could look back and know we had a great relationship.

to you i say, i will always love you and you will always have a big place in my heart.  i owe you many things and i wouldn't be who i am today without you.  you are my first love.