I am not an atheist.

Note to self:  You have to understand you grew up without a father figure, someone who shall have guided you the proper work ethics, the strategies in dealing with people and business, the tricks of the trade.  You grew up surrounded by women -- your benevolent grandmother, your domineering aunts, your passive-aggressive mother, your overshadowing sisters, your faithful helpers.  No wonder you found it difficult communicating with men.  No wonder you almost always find it easier to make friends with women.  Unfortunately, that's not your preference.  Unfortunately, they never taught you in school the rules of dating, the basic etiquette for the kind of lifestyle you live.  Unfortunately, they told you what you are is a sin.

So cheer up!  You are not in school anymore!  Now all you need to do is reconcile with your absentee father whom you love, and find a way to separate yourself from your domineering matriarchal upbringing.  You can do it because you are normal!  There is nothing wrong with you!  Seize the day!  You only live once!  It's never too late!  Never say never! ☺☻