Japanese Cherry & Sushi

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Last Sunday I met up with my college friends for a bit of tea & sashimi. We had our own stories to tell, something new to talk about like someone's gorgeous new Prada bag or someone's boyfriend doing stuff behind her back or someone's views on marriage and pregnancy or someone's brush with irresponsibility, but the bottomline was that we all lingered on the subject of SEX. So, for those who weren't able to cum dine with us while we ate each others' sushi, too bad ... you missed a lot.

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Anyway, after each of us cried over our wasabi sauce and the staff's over-zealousness to serve, someone got to ask the question, "Are you happy?" to everyone. Well, everyone except me.

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Don't get me wrong. I'm not offended or feeling left out and I'm not writing this down to make anyone feel guilty for not having asked me. It doesn't really matter, though I dared asked myself the same in hopes of gauging if I've changed my mind about my status quo.

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For me, the non-bitter me that is, I believe true happiness is balance. Like one friend said, you can't be happy ALL THE TIME. That would mean there's something wrong with you, that you are experiencing a manic episode or something. I should know, my blog past September was all splattered with the glint of mania. Not that I don't believe anyone can be happy all the time, it's just that I feel it's all a matter of perspective. A person may be having problems with his/her life but he/she can choose to look at the bright side and remain happy in spite of that. This is different from say, someone who has problems but denies their existence and lives in the delusion that everything is perfect. Hence in my case, I guess I can say I am "happy"with work, "happy" with my friends and officemates, "happy" with the changes in my life. But i can also say I am "unhappy"with some other aspects of my existence like my career, my love life, and my plans for the future. My happiness stems from the fact that I am grateful for the good things I've got going for me and my unhappiness stems from the insatiable nature of humans to strive for the best. Perhaps it is true then what people say that simple people find happiness with more facility.

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I'm not simple and I refuse to be. So there ... my gift and my curse. However, had I been asked if I am happy, I would've answered, "I try to find balance and that is better."

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