More Vodka Please ...

"Oh, mercy mercy me
Oh, things ain't what they used to be
What about this overcrowded land?
How much more abuse from man can you stand?
My sweet Lord (repeat 4x)"

-- Mercy Mercy Me by Marvin Gaye


It's one of those days where I just have to sit down and wait. I have my interview tomorrow and a pending essay application to do so I've been spending time thinking how I'll prepare myself and my priorities. Boredom is such sweet sorrow.

I'm in Malik's internet shop right now taking a rest from the first leg of my walkathon drama. I was just outside the shop drinking beer and some vodka and staring at the blaring court lights illuminating the tennis courts and tennis players when I noticed how there were these insects in their utmost frenzy flying around the lights. From afar in the dark starless background, they appeared like a dazzling display of fireworks that never seem to run out of nitrates. Are they attracted to the light or the heat of those high-powered halogen bulbs? If I can equate that to human beings, do we as people, find dreams the ultimate motivation? Or is it merely sharing the "heat" we find in the environment? Are humans like insects that settle for cramped spaces where they can find light and heat when sunlight leaves everything bereft and is substituted with all else artificial?

When one is compelled to settle for the next best thing, does one inevitably embody being burdened by mercy? And is this mercy or mercifulness necessarily bordering on being pathetic? I can't help but wonder ...

My "ex" girl friend jokingly offered a mercy fcuk on the condition that we don't scrimp on vodka. I replied saying I wasn't after a mercy fcuk but mercy hand holding in the park, mercy affection while watching a great movie in the cinema or at home, mercy poems, gifts, birthday celebrations, monthsaries, sweet nothings, mercy payment for escort services ... Hahaha

I always thought we were already given mercy when the gods sent their son to die on the cross 2 millennia ago. More vodka please! I won't go pondering on this one ...