mardi, décembre 28, 2004

Having It All




"That's the key to having it all. Stop expecting it to look like what you thought it was going to look like. That's true of the fall line and it's true of relationships."

-- Candice Bergen's character Enid in SATC


Sometimes you have to go through pain to realize how wonderful it is not going through it. Sometimes you can't demand even if you honestly feel it is due. Sometimes you can go through the motions but only if you don't lose sight of your intentions. And when you lose your way, it doesn't mean you'll find the same route.

Perhaps no one has the right to complain nor the privilege to be content. Who are we to say that a person is better or worse off than we are? We can only empathize. We can only imagine. We can only learn. Everything is in a state of change. Things will not always be how they seem, not even us.

It all depends on how you handle the change perhaps.



"You have no right to demand for Him to fulfill His promises to you. He gave you so much, what have you done with what He has given? You have to stop complaining and start being accountable for the decisions you've made."

-- paraphrased from an advice given by a nurse to her "patient" friend




While eating fried chicken strips for dinner in a posh condominium unit I don't own, I was reminded of the transience that is my life and how at any moment it can either move forward, regress or end in an instant. I was reminded of the reality of my situation (and my friend's too); how each day counts, how our attitude about it makes a huge difference.

If the best things in life are free, the "good" and "better" things must come with a price. If good things come to those who wait, the "better" and "best" things probably don't. And what about the bad, worse, and worst things? Wouldn't these come to those who wait as well? Wouldn't these come with a price too?

If patience is a virtue, what virtue would it make to be patient with patience itself?

Perhaps the real goal is to shift from a state of transience to a state of transcendence, a shift from perhaps to yes; to stop expecting and to start seeing it for what it is.


So up there on the 10th floor with the view of the river at night, the metropolis in a dormant state, the cool December breeze lifting away the smoke, the catharsis of heartfelt conversation, in those blameless moments of freedom, I felt like we had it all.



3 Truths:

Blogger Aleksuin a hightened sense of self mumbled ...

Ennui, thanks for sharing your experience, it was uplifting.

mardi, décembre 28, 2004 11:36:00 PM  
Blogger EGO SVM CAROLVSin a hightened sense of self mumbled ...

Contentment is one of those absolutes, like how in calculus a curve gets closer and closer to a defined limit, yet they never quite touch. When can we say we have crossed the treshold and reached tangency? Thinking about it just drives me maaaad.

Oh and by the way, I knew of the "lair" months ago when it wasn't so private as now! :^)

mercredi, décembre 29, 2004 8:49:00 AM  
Blogger {illyria}in a hightened sense of self mumbled ...

i wish i could have been there to be transcendent with you.

jeudi, décembre 30, 2004 5:33:00 PM  

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